I been focusing all on my franklins , I’m feeling just like I’m Trevor I’m crazy as ever, change for the better, I couldn’t be a Michael never I got love for all of my brothers but all that we do is get high together The drugs might numb the pain okay but you can’t stay high forever Haters come through and we lay em the rest Fuck chasing a bitch, ill be chasing a cheque You weigh yourself down with the chain on your neck but i hold myself up with the pain in my chest What you know about that? Living in fear that your parents might not see tomorrow All that you got has been borrowed you find yourself in a crowd you never wanted to follow Theres no other options I knew that id do this for mum and dad back from the moment i lost em Whatever it takes, ill make sure that Dylan and Beth never have to do anything i did Look at the size of my circle decreasing, people will switch up whenever you’re blinded No one is born with a purpose at all, we were put on this earth to get up and go find it I been struggling alone for a minute but i haven’t been alone in a minute Doesn’t make sense right? i aint picking up my phone if there isn’t digits on the other end I don’t really need another friend Imma work till my fam don’t have to Don’t flex cause a man don’t have to Rap looking like a stand up act, dudes Come and go quicker than a D Trump statue I need to breathe for a second but i work all the time so my mind is at ease Kindness deceived by liars and cheats so don’t ask why i aint trying to speak Still ride with my team and we Still got no time for police The first me is who I’m trying to be I aint worried bout them cause i got the keys, yeah i got the keys

I been away for a minute, was losing faith in my spirit I feel a change in the wind but they all be saying I'm finished So I cant stay in my limits, I do not play with restrictions Maybe my vision is different, they aint making a difference I take straight into the paint for the finish They gone be talking bout how this kid from Australia did it Lately I'm tryna escape it's like This place is a prison The chains have been slipping I swear you couldn’t Pay me to fit in I'm a monster I knew that from the start It was injected in my chest like I got Fluid on my heart They ain't doing what I'm doing I been shooting for the stars Pop a Lucy, got me shooting lucid movies in the dark I remember writing bars on my computer in the class room They thought it was a joke I knew those dudes weren't gonna laugh soon assume that I am still the same and Crucify my past This is do or die I'm feeling like this music is my chance I'm a monster, you can see it in my eyes This shit is in my blood I'm really bleeding on the mic I'm a monster, for my people in the sky and the demons in my mind its the reason I'm alive I'm a monster, you can see it in my eyes This shit is in my blood I'm really bleeding on the mic I'm a monster, for my people in the sky and the demons in my mind its the reason I'm alive, imma It's that kid who spoke to no one, now he’s speaking to the mic instead This my only hope I write like this is life or death I might be next or I might regret or the time I spent Inside my head praying for one spark like the Lighters dead Now I found it no longer out powered by doubt And cowards Tryna bring me down and out for the count but the crown is ours strangers recognising me out in town, I’m amazed On the stage in a daze when the crowd is shouting my name They never gave me a chance when I had the ball In my hands Now that i made a lane they all wanna call me the man I'm doing all that I can, sometimes I fall but I stand back up Like this is life and I let it Fall into plan I try to use my words in these verses to paint a picture You wont ever hear me talk about money and chains its bigger When I think about my past it's so cold that it makes me shiver I know mum and dad are watching and they raised a quitter I'm a monster, you can see it in my eyes This shit is in my blood I'm really bleeding on the mic I'm a monster, for my people in the sky and the demons in my mind, its the reason I'm alive I'm a monster, you can see it in my eyes This shit is in my blood, I'm really bleeding on the mic I'm a monster, for my people in the sky and the demons in my mind its the reason I'm alive imma

i do a show and disappear A room full of people i bleed like nobody is here Fucked up, love drunk, i aint been sober in a year Overdosing on these thoughts I’m getting closer to my fears but they all cheer now they never wanted to listen i never wanted to fit in and so i got me a vision I’ve seen too many come and go they got lost in the system or ended up on the pippy guess its too hot in the kitchen I’m always ready for the smoke i just wanna make sure that i feel ready when i go if i don’t try then how am i ever gonna know i know theres some people who think its better if i don’t but those people are only existing when I’m on my phone this is life or death fuck the fame, ill be satisfied if i try my best another day its no rapper life that I’m tryna flex judge away i made sacrifices i might be next I’m high again but i don’t think I’m coming down zombies off the xans but i can’t ever dumb it down they think they run the town but they’re stuck in the underground there’s only so much you can take before you’re underground another down and his mummas wondering will he be home again her son is on the ground bleeding out like broken pen where are all your brothers now? those fuckers had no respect you gave your life to them and now your sister can’t go to bed its the world we live in loose thoughts have been driving me crazy the old me is the person i remind me of lately i keep my eyes on the road but my sights getting hazy I guess I’m the one to blame getting high on the daily maybe loose thoughts have been driving me crazy the old me is the person i remind me of lately i keep my eyes on the road but my sights getting hazy please don’t take my hand if you’re trying to save me i wanna see your mind i could give a fuck about appearances i take this love shit seriously thats just from my experience tell me bout your fears girl tell me what your theory is we can drive take my hand but not the one I’m steering with all that means is i don’t wanna lose focus you know this baby I’m too broken to forget my future and let all my wounds open i see the hard working energy through both of us i wanna shine i wanna see you shine too i know that you will never see what i do i really hope that i can be the right dude if not i guess its back to facing screens in my room and i have been up the doing the same shit for a while was sitting here in the dark then you came in with a smile my brain is in denial the pain is from my childhood were way too old for games don’t play this like a trial please remember watching my family taken by police thats how i knew it was something id never try to be i had no idol, just people i inspired to not be like i want advice from my parents but shit they’re not alive the doctors tried and honestly i don’t want to die but i’d give my whole fucking life to get them both on the line for one minute id tell them both that ill never quit but i just need some guidance to fix the state that my head is in

If you not from this side then fall back or something I spit a flow, its give and go i got these rappers running I only write in lowercase cause i aint cappin nothin We’re slowly coming together, man look what Kap has done He took a stand, now I’m down on one knee with my brothers and sisters Fuck the news, magazines and all the covers and pictures Enough of religion, a couple of christians Just killed an innocent woman when she had love for the system? Its got me fucked up How can we trust them if they don’t trust us and she was fighting for the same cause Tell me how you take a life when it aint yours Tell me how you act surprised when we blame laws Tell me what they know about the struggle They aint ever been forced to sit in the house and hustle They ain’t ever been forced to grow up without their mother and watch their brothers be killed, he’s trying to stay out of trouble but does he really have a choice? Baby mama aborted but shit he nearly had a boy His city is sleeping, they never hear him making noise Stuck with this feeling, its like he’s filling in a void When you come from the bottom, you see your innocence destroyed He says I’m just trying to be great Fuck that, I’m just trying to be me You see the fire in my eyes, i feel inspired from defeat I told my family that we aint gonna die up in these streets I’m finna rise up on my feet won’t ever give up I aint out to get those people back the way they did us Ever since a jit, i been fixed on the bigger picture They hate it when you make your own lane and thats why they whisper As long as i remember, the cops patrolling the streets I guess i was lucky i got on wth the older G's They had my back and made sure that i was walking in peace Tell me why i ever would need to talk to police They don’t wanna see you come from the gutter and shine They don’t wanna see you get out of trouble and rise I came from nothing it was only my brothers and i Why do they only notice the struggle when one of us dies They don’t wanna see you come from the gutter and shine They don’t wanna see you get out of trouble and rise I came from nothing it was only my brothers and i Why do they only notice the struggle when one of us dies Thats real

I don’t know if its real i don’t know what to feel I been choking up still and I’m over the chills I still talk to the devil were close to a deal Find me roasting a bill shit i don’t need no pills I think about quitting they hope that i will Listen to these words when i go like a will I’m broken theres kids out there quoting me still Lost focus but thats how i know that its real Just said goodbye to my brother Wish i was there more but we ride for each other Hate watching the family try to recover Rest in peace Mac i aint finding another High off some uppers I’m thinking of you I guess thats what that drinking’ll do Spaced out as i sit in a room With some people I’m so fucking different to Not in the mood to get out of bed Popping some shrooms to get out my head They want me to lose, all i got is a noose If i use it then i won’t feel left out again Pass me a pen imma write till i can’t Don’t ask me again imma die for this art I might need a mask just to hide all these scars I look up i still see your eyes in the stars Find me a glass let me pour up Having visions of my team on a tour bus Crowds growing we show up in numbers So try all you want but you just can’t ignore us Been fighting and trying to stand on my feet I only fit in when I’m handed a beat or on stage cause I’m used to them staring at me I’m an outkast for life i don’t care what they think How could i ever trust someone else when i don’t even trust my self How could i ever love someone else when i don’t even love myself How could i ever trust someone else when i don’t even trust my self I don’t trust myself Thats real now i gotta trap for a meal Tell me relax and i will When I’m back to the bills with my back to the bills No cap in my tracks i just rap what i feel Don’t switch for the wave Been up drifting for the days Aint made shit but mistakes Face laid in the dirt i can say how the bitumen tastes Cause i watch as they’re digging my grave She tells me she wanna know me but i look in her eyes and i feel like i know her already Feel nothing I’m staying low-key except when I’m with her but she doesn’t know if she’s ready So i aint staying sober its petty i know but when are demons are close, it gets heavy They all laughed when i said i had places to go Tried to shine but the coach wouldnt let me I’m done with the stress, its been up to my neck Can’t escape it, i wake and I’m covered in sweat Should i jump off the edge cause I’m stuck in my head and the voices make me think i’d love to be next and i would tho Somedays i wish that i could go They can’t read my mind but they should know The pain’s deep inside if you look close I’m all good tho I try sleep to distract myself I can’t eat i got packs to sell Don’t speak to a rat cause a rat has a rat to tell I can’t stop but you won’t ever see me trapped in cells Back to hell Thats where I’m living everyday Consider me deranged, thoughts riddling my brain They don’t listen to my pain its like i didn’t even say shit Ever since 8 i knew i’d never be the same kid

I’m just trying to cope I’m so dam tired i aint tying a rope but i might need to smoke No lie i been feeling just like I’m a ghost and my life is a joke My mind isn't open like it was i was just 19 I’m hoping to fly but I’m broken Brothers i had by my side shit i still wonder why we aint spoken but life seems to go on like Life seems to go on This aint a song I’m just writing a poem My best friends and I’m feeling like i don’t know em Can we go back to when i was still growing and i didn't know all the evil the world had to offer I hadn’t told any girl that i want her Now i see it’s not a curse and those losses Helped me get back up and turn to a monster I’m on Remember no one used to fuck with songs Dead inside but saying nothing was wrong Remembering i had mother so strong Imma show my kids the love that she gave I tell my girl that I’m the who she saved If you want love then it comes with the pain I know there’s days i feel like running away but I’m here to stay Tell me if you hear me, tell me if you can relate I don’t feel like I’m from here because I’m always out of place I don’t recognise this path that i been walking down for days Maybe if i keep on going then it all we be okay Life goes on, I’m gonna write these songs but i can’t take back the time Life goes on i cannot right my wrongs But i can take back my life When you watch your siblings turn to fast money Just to go and blow of all of their money fast When you watch the people that you love throw away their lives all for another glass I aint talking bout alcohol This is that shit that will leave you without a soul without a goal, without a home I seen i happen since a kid this is all i know damn I just hope that you’re doing better Are these lyrics as true as ever They say once an addict, you’re always an addict but I’ll be still be praying for you forever I just hope that you’re doing better Are these lyrics as true as ever They say once an addict, you’re always an addict but I’ll be still be praying for you forever Please believe in yourself You’re talking just like you don’t need no one else I see in your eyes that you’re screaming for help I know that feeling cause i keep to myself too You don’t need another reason to hurt Substance can help you forget your problems for a moment but i don’t believe that it works It aint over till we’re leaving this earth, we all need some work Tell me if you hear me, tell me if you can relate I don’t feel like I’m from here because I’m always out of place I don’t recognise this path that i been walking down for days Maybe if i keep on going then it all we be okay Life goes on, I’m gonna write these songs but i can’t take back the time Life goes on i cannot right my wrongs but i can take back my life

Another year has passed I aint hearing you i hope you hearing us I hope you’re feeling proud, i hope you feel the love I hope its you who picked me up when i was nearly done I swear i think about you every day, sometimes i wanna scream or wake up from this mess but sadly this is not a dream and it seems like its only getting worse now Its hard for me to not talk about you in every verse now Sitting at your funerals wishing we could reverse I was meant to show you the world this isn’t what you deserved I was meant to buy you a house i just wanted to see you stress free You made sure we were good then you struggled until the next week Its hard to be happy when i reflect cause every time i do I get reminded of all the pain that you were fighting through They say it gets easier and i think thats lie as you get older you just have more distractions to help you hide the truth All these questions i don’t know how to answer Life is hard but its harder learning without a father Felt myself gong down a path till i found my karma I was out of hope while the other kids were out of data When we lost dad its like half of me wasn’t there I started to understand and you started losing your hair They said you didn’t have long its so hard for me to prepare Holding your cold hands like why can’t it be me in there You weren’t here to see me starting and then finishing high school You weren’t here when i was ready just to give up on life You weren’t here when i dropped the ball and i picked up a mic You wont be there for the time when i have some kids and a wife I guess thats why I'm hesitant to love I was young but i can’t help but think i never did enough Just for you, I’m standing tall and i aint ever gonna run I hope you hear me, this is just another letter from your son